Confused.

It is all OK.
Just got a message. Clear message. Not conventional though.
And I'm not quite sure how I feel about it.
Of course I did quite a share of over-thinking, over-analysing, over-dramatising. 
Over-everything.
I even had a minor breakdown. Tears and heavy breathing and stuff.
I felt like the Universe has lied to me.
But, it turns out that I, in my best effort and wish, managed to force the misleading answer.
Hence blaming the Universe and feeling like shit.
Well, it is not quite OK yet. 
I guess it will be after a good night sleep.
And will be after ... after a while. 
I need this thing to be done. 
Just don't know how yet.